By His Grace

Happy Thanksgiving.

Today is Thanksgiving day and while I am extremely grateful and thankful for all of the blessings God has given me, I am very sad today. I cannot stop crying. I thought for sure by now Kyle and I would be celebrating a little blessing of our own, but that is not the case. I am having a hard time understanding why I am not yet pregnant.

I feel so selfish and greedy being sad this Thanksgiving. I really am thankful for a sweet husband, a wonderful family (both my family and my in-laws!), a great house and neighborhood, a job, and so forth. I just want to have a baby so badly. I want a little baby of our own to nurture and love and take care of. I know I will make a good mother and Kyle will make a great daddy. I just simply do not understand. I know it is all about God's timing. I just keep thinking that God blessed me for a short time this past summer with a pregnancy so why can I not get pregnant again? It seems like God was telling me that it was the right time.