Kyle and I returned yesterday from a wonderful trip to Hilton Head with some of my family members. We had a nice time and it was so much fun because my sweet little niece was there. While we were there we did my running program on the beach and it was wonderful to be able to jog on the beach (even though it was challenging because of the high tide!). While we were running I kept thinking of our son or daughter. Of course names were a big discussion and I think we have narrowed it down (for now) to three girl names and two boy names. We probably won't discuss names again for a while because I don't want to go ahead and choose a name like we did with the past two failed adoptions because the attachment becomes even greater.
I'm still being patient but as I've told some of my family members, I don't really like to talk about this current situation. I'm excited in my heart but on the outside I am trying not to get all that enthusiastic because it hurts. It hurts to think that we could potentially have another failed adoption. I do firmly believe that this is all God's timing and I am so grateful that He has been creating our child for us - the child who is meant to be ours. I praise Him for having a great plan for us. I thought the time would creep by extra slowly but it's not so bad because I don't talk about it that much. I don't allow myself to go into the nursery we have at home - that door remains closed. I've been putting my energy into a running program and cooking.
That's all I have for now.
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