Jumbled.

I know I said I will post about what happened. Even though I am so blessed to feel a huge peace in my heart, today has been a little hard. A week ago today is when we said goodbye to that sweet baby girl and I have been having flashbacks all day of our time with her. It has started to really sink in that I am not a mom anymore. I am realizing that I was only a temporary mom and even though those were the best (almost) 11 weeks of my life, reality has hit me. We are back in the waiting stage of getting "the call" and it is more painful than ever. I am absolutely trusting that God has a special baby for us. I just am really, really, really wanting to meet him or her soon. Very soon.

Anyways, I wrote all of that to say that I am still not quite at a place right now to type out exactly what happened. As the days go on I realize I don't need to type out every single detail but only the short of it (yeah, like I can make stories short...not!). I may just type out the major details and whoever wants to know more can send me a message and I will be happy to answer any questions. Every time I start to type out what happened or write a few paragraphs I end up erasing everything because it just doesn't flow together. I think I am going to have to realize that it will never exactly flow together or make complete sense. So, hopefully I will write out the story soon. Maybe this weekend or next week. Sorry to keep everyone waiting! I seriously had three paragraphs written out and then just erased them all because they were all sorts of mixed up and jumbled.