Babeless.

Yesterday I was asked, "How are those babies of yours?" I thought maybe I didn't hear the question correctly so I just said, "Huh?" The question was repeated and all I could do was answer, "I don't have any babies." The person who asked the question (who I don't really know that well) got me mixed up with someone else who works on my floor. I know she didn't mean anything by asking me and it actually didn't make me angry. She then went on to talk about her son and his wife who have been married for a while and how they don't care to have children right now. They like to do their own thing and that's okay. I just smiled and told her we hope to be adopting soon. I seriously didn't get sad or upset because this nice lady meant no offense.

I can't wait until the day I can tell others how my baby/babies is/are doing. I can't wait for the day I can be included on cutesy talk about what funny thing my child(ren) did the day before or what new word they said. I can only cling on to my faith and the hope that the Lord has our child for us and that we will meet him or her sooner rather than later.

I've been in some pretty weird moods lately and Kyle has been a trooper to put up with me. Every time I start feeling down in the dumps I quickly start praying and thanking God for all of the blessings He has given us. About two months ago I finished a running program that really helped to relieve some stress and help my mind stay focused. I've tried starting that program back up but I just am not into it right now. So, I've started a new 30 day program that has cardio and strength training on top of my walking. I also have been logging all of my calories and exercise. It really helps to (kind of) take my mind off of things and makes me stop focusing on why my heart is so raw right now.

Like I always say: God is good and life is tough but God is still good!