During my doctor appointment last Thursday, my doctor was telling me that since I've exhausted Clomid he could give me information on a different fertility medication that women with PCOS take when trying to get pregnant. Now, as I've discussed on here before, I do not have PCOS though I was convinced at one time I did (I went through hours of testing last fall and it all came back negative). He said that even though I don't have PCOS that I could still take it. I forgot what the name was...all I know is it starts with L. I told him I wasn't so sure so he said he will drop some information in the mail for me.
This is such an (ongoing) battle...it's as if new medical opportunities keep presenting themselves to me and now I just have to see if I am going to stick to my word about trusting the Lord and not relying on medication in the hope I will become pregnant. What does this mean? This means that I will not be going on this new medication...or at least not right now (though it is very tempting). This also means I am going to stop trying so hard...and stop trying in general.
*Sidenote: I am not a Christian Scientist - I have no problem with taking medication.
Mary, I think this is probably (hopefully) a really great decision for you both right now. And who knows, taking some of the stress out of the equation, might help in more ways than one!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, my sweet friend! I know it's tough to figure out if you & Kyle are making the right decisions. And Melanie is right - maybe removing the stress will help!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, ya'll! I appreciate the encouraging comments. I guess I'm just sick and tired of the whole thing. Even though I sort of feel like I am giving up, I hope I can one day get back to being happy and excited for friends whenever I hear of them getting pregnant or whenever they send me a baby shower invitation.
ReplyDeleteI was on Clomid for 6 months and then again for 4 months after a surgery that told the doctor a little more than he knew before. It made me emotionally crazy. It's definitely not giving up, although I know that feeling. Hang in there and realize that while you're trying to figure out what is going on, God is orchestrating your story.
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