Mind Fetus, You Will Not Get the Best of Me!

Alright mind fetus, you can go away now.

For the past few days I have been dealing with a mind fetus. For those of you who don't know what the heck a mind fetus is, it is when you have pregnancy symptoms but are not pregnant. Usually women who have had miscarriages experience mind fetus' before their (late) monthly cycle. I've had my fair share of mind fetus' ever since last summer but this week's mind fetus is worse than ever (and no, I am not pregnant!). I've had some pains and discomfort (which, if I was pregnant I would definitely not be complaining about!) in my stomach and just now I ran to the bathroom to throw up. Now, throwing up takes a lot out of me and it is one thing I despise to do more than anything. While this may sound gross, I just forced myself to not throw up...I made myself keep it down. I can contribute this incident to a Kashi granola bar. It was "mocha" flavored and, while I cannot stand mocha or coffee or anything like that, I was so hungry and just kind of forced myself to try to ignore the flavor (it didn't work). What is really odd is the fact that the granola bars were in my pantry. My husband is another coffee hater so the only reason I think he bought the bars is because they were on sale/clearance. Yuck. I've also gained about 10 pounds since our California trip. Oh joy. I can contribute this to eating nothing but junk. I must cut out on the daily desserts (I have recently discovered that I am really good at baking!). Something has got to change. I go walking about three to four days a week but I need to start utilizing the free gym at work.

So yesterday I went to the doctor for my yearly appointment. The nurse who was measuring my weight, blood pressure, etc. asked if I had ever been pregnant before (Um, hello? Just look further into my chart) and I of course said yes. She then asked how many live births I have had (Seriously lady, please just look at my chart) and I of course had to say zero. Oh well.

So far my positive outlook on life has been working for the most part. I am so thankful for all of the blessings God has given me and my husband and I need to stop obsessing over things I do not have. Easier said than done but we shall see.