Is there such thing as a jinx? No, but it sure feels like it.
Our second failed adoption. That's right...FAILED.
I'll spare the details. I can tell you this...I am praying to the good Lord that he helps me to not feel anger. I pray that this baby girl radically changes the life of that pretty, young birthmom.
I know God still has a plan for us and has a reason that we have had two failed adoptions. I know that we are meant to adopt. I do admit in my own brief pity party yesterday the thought popped into my mind that maybe we aren't meant to be parents at all. Maybe we were just meant to be the loving aunt and uncle. I know Satan put that thought in my mind because I know good and well God has been preparing us to be parents and I know that we will be amazing parents.
Though I hate it, I am going to deactivate my blog. It's been a great outlet but I just feel like everytime I write about it something goes wrong. And as long as I have this blog I am going to write about any matches, etc. because I get so excited about it.
God is good and life is tough but God is still good. Forever He is faithful.
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